I’ve never been very good at the “middle” or “end of “doing things”. Starting projects I’m very good at. But keeping them going… not so much. And finishing them, I hate even more.
Recently I finished writing my 2nd book. It was anticlimactic at best. I was sat in my onesie in my bedroom in an empty house when I’d finished reading through it to make sure I’d not left anything out and I went “I think I’ve finished it”. Unsure. That same feeling you get as you’re about to rush out of your house and you’re convinced you left something behind.
I had no idea what to do. I didn’t know who to ring or text or even if it was worth posting about on social media. After all, one of my biggest pet peeves on social media is ambiguous posts. Posting “finished my book” is a little random and I’d usually rather wait for it to be out than “tease” people with it.
At the start of a project you’re about to back out of it. You don’t really know what the project “is” and so it almost feels like less of a commitment than when it was just an idea in your head.
After a week of investigating the idea it becomes more and more real. The more real it becomes the more work is exposed and the more I personally want it to succeed. Having said that I can see the opposite. I’ve been the person who drops the idea when it becomes hard work and just goes back to playing video games or watching cats on YouTube.
I think my favourite part of an idea or project is the middle. The bit where you’ve started and committed but are still learning. Second place would have to be finishing the idea. I love the feeling of completing something, even if it has a level of anticlimax to it. And in third place comes having the idea. And then finally starting to try and make it real.
It’s like learning to drive a car. Having the idea of passing your test is fun and exciting. Getting your first lesson is terrifying and worrying. Learning the complex maneuvers is fun again. And then passing feels great but you’re like “what now?”.
Not sure what I’m trying to say here. Just thinking about projects as I start to look at launching my book and then beginning a new writing project (the sitcom).